a hairdresser

tonight i was wandering around a city which kept changing from Rzeszów to Kraków and vice versa. i remember that i told my father i had to visit a hairdresser. and i did so. the hairdresser was a middle-aged woman. she asked me what i wanted to do with my hair. suddenly, i realized that i only wanted them to grow longer.

there was snow. white snow.

tonight i was skiing in Krynica with Mike. and after that we were in a house of the family i'd befriended in one of previous dreams. each of us had own bedroom and we could see the slope through the window. it looked as if we were staying on top of the "gondola station"which seemed very strange. Mike invited me to his room to watch a film. but instead of watching the film, we started to talk and had a very pleasant conversation. then some kids (two girls reminding Little My from The Moomins that i'd watched before sleep...) interrupted us. we lost the thread and said nothing more. but somehow the silence felt beautiful.

in the morning i saw a boy whose eyes were almost the same as Mike's.

The world that shrank

The very beginning is rather vague. I know only that we were travelling or roaming as if we were in exile. WE – Some Guy and me. There was some danger hanging above our heads and forcing us to keep running away and hiding.
The world was shrinking. At first I didn’t feel any limits. Then I built awareness of the world and its borders – the world confined to my town, my district, my university, a storey, a room, a window...
We found ourselves in front of the university. We entered the hall and went upstairs. Our storey was full of people. When we managed to elbow through the crowd, we saw dr O. sitting by the table and talking with the students. I stood in a queue for signs or advice. I took my phone out of the pocket and accidentally made a photo. A woman sitting by dr O. (they both formed a kind of commission) saw that and started shouting at me. I deleted the photo and let them check my phone. I had nothing to hide but they weren’t pleased. Apparently, dr O. really hated me. She was shouting and shooting some absurd arguments towards me. I knew such behaviour very well. She resembled someone. Dr O. looked at us – me and SG – and accused us of being fools. She was sick and tired of our idiotic ‘rainbow enterprise’. She hated us. I thought I could explain to her that I had nothing to do with any enterprise but found any further discussion pointless. I didn’t care what she was thinking, she would understand nothing. I wanted to say just one thing: ‘You really find it stupid? Come on! Look at ME and you’ll see what's truly pathetic!’ But I said nothing.


The world had shrunk. We were sitting in an enormously big bedroom (somewhere in our university). We occupied two chairs, with our heads hung low. There had been a terrible quarrel between dr O. and us. SG wanted to scrap his head and touched me by accident. I shuddered. He did it again and again I shuddered. I woke up.
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The world had shrunk. It had been limited to one big room. We had to escape. Some woman gave me keys and let me use her green car. I got into the car and started engine. In front of me, I could see the gate leading to freedom. SG stopped me, he was sure the gate would lead us nowhere, he saw the chance behind us. He forbade me to drive the car because I would not manage. He went somewhere, leaving me on the passenger’s seat. Some strange girls got into the car and started driving. I tried to stop them but the road surface was too slippery and the hand-brake didn’t work. I jumped out of the car and fell on the ground. The girls immediately killed themselves in an accident.

The world had shrunk. All the people disappeared. There were only dr O., SG and me. Soon I realised that all the people died. I could see dead bodies covering the floor. We couldn’t escape. Hundreds of hungry cats were preying on the putrescent corpses. We were putting clothes on the bodies to prevent from the beasts and the smell and postpone our death. I looked through the window. We were on the first floor, we had lots of clothes and rags… I started to pack my stuff. Dr O. was constantly criticising me. I said to her and SG: “Look, that’s the only chance to escape, we could jump through the window.” “I won’t go with you, this is my place, I should die here” – said SG. “Mom – I turned to dr O. – please, jump, we can save ourselves! Can’t you both see that?” She started shouting some terrible things. “Are you mad? I won’t go anywhere with you! I don’t want to! I’m to tired! Stop being stupid!” I couldn’t believe. I started crying. “Don’t you understand that I don’t want to die without you as well as I don’t want to live without you?!” I was crying so hard and so loud that I woke up again.